Mahi is Done with One

Where did the time go.  New different kind of memories due to covid19

My Top 5 Telugu Movies

My Favorite Telugu movies that I am watching during Covid-19 lockdown.  This is my all time top 5 list:

5. Yamadonga -  Post weight loss, Jr NTR brought it to the screen.  The combination of Rajmouli and NTR.  It was just a blast from the past kind of movie. One of the first epics (pouranikas) brought back to life that I enjoyed after a long time.  And jr NTR lived the role.  Never before or after have I seen a movie of him that I liked so much. Also for the first and probably only time I liked Mohan Babu



4. Mahanati: Definitely there are flaws in the movie. Not a 100% accuracy of Savitri's life but the execution of the story and the sets just take me back to an era.  Probably in my previous life I was a fan of her.  I probably watched the movie at least 10+ times.



3. Manam - Something about seeing love that is not romantic in the screen that appeals to me.  ANR lives on.  Mother-son love that transcends time.  It is one of my go to movies.



2. Oh! Baby - Humm just realized its 3rd Samantha movie.  But in this she is the main star.  It is about mother's love.  A mother's sacrifice.  Each time I see this movie it touches my heart.  I was debating if this should be my first.  My fav dialogue:  "Na koduku na tho lenappudu zeevitham entha bagunte enti ippudu"



1. Maya Bazaar:  I just can't describe this movie.  Best movie of the century.  All time actually.  I don't think I want to say more. I watched it 100 times.  

Kissed!!!!

Got kissed by a Dolphin!!!!!!

Looks like i never published it.  This happened 10 years ago.  Post covid19 i would never do this again

Stuck at home with beautiful rain

Beautiful california.  

Let it rain let it rain.  

Let the earth heal while we are inside.  

Loving the warmth of family health and wealth.  

Feeling blessed an praying for the rest.

Beautiful california.

Let it rain let it rain

Corona

World is in a Pandemic!

Corona Covid-19 a new noval virus.  Noval virus means it has never been hosted by a human body.  The news is that it started in some market in China or maybe lab.  The world is suffering.

Let me correct it,  the Mother Earth is flourishing as we humans are being forced to go indoor and put in our place.  Animals and fish are coming out enjoying their world.  The Earth that belongs to them. 

The only suffering is humans!  Yes I don't want to make this a spiritual bla bla.  The health care providers, the suppliers, politicians and many ppl are working hard to save lives.  I can't be sitting at home quarantined, unaffected and talking about this so impersonally.

Yes I understand the seriousness of whats going on with the world and humans.  What I want to say is that I am not 'annoyed' that i have to stay home during this crisis.  I am not upset that the economy is in standstill.  It will recover unlike the lives lost.  Yes there is temporary suffering but its not permanent. 

Also this disease is effecting older and weaker community.  You might say survival of the fittest and let it spread, worst case it will bring the population count down.  But that's an impersonal way to look at it.  What if that is your family member that is the one number that is bringing the population count down.  Are you prepared to accept the pandemic then?  This is how Dharma works.  Is it the right for me or right for the human kind or right for the world.  What is the right thing to do? 

Either way how i feel about this, it is happening all around the world now.  How little control do i have in this whole thing but to just sit around and wait for time to take its course?  What i do get to do is spend time with my children.  Be grateful for the health of my family and time I have on this earth.  Even though I don't know how much time and with whom. I am grateful I have time.

Mental Health

I am writing this post as I want my children to know that it was not easy being a mother.

Don't get me wrong being a mom is the purest joy of my life.  But after my 2nd pregnancy I went through hell internal and external.

2nd pregnancy was very difficult with a added Auto immune as a bonus.  Once the delivery happened, there were wonderful in law fights and hell.  Of course fights with the husband.  Own family members breaking my heart. The most happiest time in my life turned nightmare-ish.  Work sucked (lost direct reports in the mere fact that i was a returning mom to work)  Had to pretty much quit my job.  Earned planter factious, hip pain, shoulder pain.  Had to leave my beautiful home due to many fights fights fights...  Made a decision to stay as family for the sake of children.  Move across the coasts to restart life.  New jobs (2 already) to try to fit in and contribute.... Absolutely unfullfuilling job ever.

Some where along the way postpartum depression turned into "Adjustment Disorder"  I guess this is what my shrink calls it.  Having difficultly to cope with current life itself.  Depressive moods. Lack of interest.  Anxiety.  Lost energy in the core.  Absolutely zero career satisfaction. Aboslutely zero relationship satisfaction. Zero  interest in the materialistic life. Sadness.

Through out all this I am still your best mom.  You are still the best thing that happened to me.  This part of my life is fully fulfilled.  Its weird how two stories can coexist within me at the same time.

I am writing this to you because i want you to know, that it was VERY hard for your mom.  You are 7 and 3... you have bestest happiest life.  I am making sure of it while I am going through this.

Did I mention to you guys that there is the corona virus going around this time around the world and we are quarantined for 2 weeks now and possibly even more. So the world is also a bit of sad right now.

Here is a question Mahi you are asking me right now:  What kind of star wears sun glasses?  - Answer:  a movie star of course!  Krish you are sitting right next to me leaning in watching TV. 

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Wow I have not blogged in for almost 6 years!  I need to write more I feel like looking back at my blog posts gives me a good perspective on what i have achieved in my life.

My number 1 and most important achievements are my children. Mahi and Krish

Thats my little 2 with my Mom.  Mahi is 7 and Krish is almost 3 (2 months away)  My Krishu is so naughty....  My Mahi is soo sweet.  They are with my mom.  Could I ask for more?  I treasure these 3.  The one that gave me life and the ones that i gave life to....